And this is how my blog is revitalized. I experienced a drought in my life.. my desire to write shriveled. I did not entirely lose myself, but I did forget a piece of myself. Misplaced most likely. Somewhere. So I planted some blue flowers. Promise to forget-me-not.

documentation of my neuroses, eccentricities, imperfections, lame puns & other rad bullshit

ED & Me

ED & Me

People are obsessed with food. We talk about food, we bond over food, we take pictures of food and post them for the world to see, we read about food, we wear food, we personalize our food, we fight over food beliefs. But what if I told you the one thing we are so sure is about food is actually not? Would you be surprised to hear that an eating disorder is not all about food? That maybe you who is considered “normal” is more obsessed than someone with a disorder? Because that is what I am going to tell you right now.

I got a lot of great feedback regarding the depression (Dear Depression) and the bully (My Bully) post, so I thought I’d go for Round 3 with another friend of mine:

How long have you had an eating disorder?

-Since I was 11, but it has come in phases.

So you’ve had periods in your life when it hasn’t been active?

-Yes. Certain ages it was worse than others. When I was younger, I did not even know I had one; I thought my behaviors were normal. I literally stretched an unflattering  picture of me on photoshop, printed it out, and hung it on my wall to serve as “motivation” to eat less and exercise more. I was only in sixth grade and I thought there was nothing strange about this.

What disorders have you been diagnosed with?

-Anorexia Nervosa, Bulimia Nervosa, Anorexia Athletica, Body Dysmorphia

Would you consider yourself healed?

-I can be considered healed if you look at my actions. However, psychologically it’s something I can never fully recover from. Sometimes this is difficult to accept, but I have to remind myself that this is my reality.

Can you explain a little more of what you mean by that?

-My eating disorder is sneaky. I may feel perfectly healthy and fine, but subconsciously be falling into my behaviors again. I might not realize that the runs I go on have grown longer and the time I spend eating has shortened. Or that I am choosing lower calorie foods at restaurants and reading all the nutrition labels at the grocery store. There is this voice in the back of my mind that constantly haunts me–it makes me believe my clothes are getting tighter and my athletic performance is weakening. One word to describe it: shitty.

Are there any stigmas you’d like to put an end to?

-I wish I could put an end to the idolization of eating disorders. People assume that you do not have a disorder if you are not extremely underweight and think you are fat. In fact, most insurances will not pay for treatment unless you are a certain percentage underweight, which is absolutely ridiculous. It disgusts me that people congratulate others who lose a significant amount of weight and call them an inspiration, simply because their starting weight would be considered “a few extra pounds” or “improvable”. I started at an average weight and people complimented my body as I began to shed pounds, and unknowingly encouraged a premature death for me. I cannot be angry with people for being ignorant…I just want them to understand that unhealthy weight loss is unhealthy weight loss, regardless of what you look like.

What is your opinion on society’s perception of eating disorders?

-Society does not truly understand what an eating disorder is. It is about so much more than weight and food–it’s about control, trauma coping, genetic susceptibility, etc. I used my eating disorder as a comfort; it gave me a sense of control and security. In fact, it gave me a sense of superiority and false confidence. Thus, telling me I am skinny and saying all I have to do is eat to solve my problems is honestly quite humorous. If only it were that simple–I would not have had to spend 45 days impatient. An eating disorder is an addiction, but unlike drug addicts and alcoholics, I cannot stay dry. I have to face my addiction…at least 6 times a day. I do not expect perfection, I just want society to not be so narrow-minded. You can say the words “fat” and “throw up” in front of me…you can invite me to get pizza…you can make a joke about weight. I am a human, not an illness.

And one more thing:

-To anyone who is struggling with an eating disorder, think you might be, or know someone who is, push for treatment. It might be the greatest challenge of your life, but if you even want a life, it is vital. I did not realize how exhausting every day was for me–both mentally and physically–until I accepted help. You are capable and you deserve recovery.

78 thoughts on “ED & Me”

  • After study just a few of the blog posts in your web site now, and I really like your way of blogging. I bookmarked it to my bookmark web site checklist and shall be checking back soon. Pls try my web page as effectively and let me know what you think.

  • Sick and tired of being bored? There’s nothing at all good to watch on TV these days. How many cat videos can you watch at YouTube? What you really want is some live adult entertainment. That’s what is all about. It’s 24/7 excitement like you’ve never seen before. Check it out and tell a friend. Something this good needs to be shared.

  • Hey I know this is off topic but I was wondering if you knew of
    any widgets I could add to my blog that automatically tweet my newest
    twitter updates. I’ve been looking for a plug-in like
    this for quite some time and was hoping maybe you would have some experience with something like this.
    Please let me know if you run into anything. I truly enjoy reading your blog and I look forward to
    your new updates.

  • I simply want to say I am very new to blogs and absolutely loved you’re blog. Most likely I’m going to bookmark your website . You definitely have very good articles and reviews. Appreciate it for sharing your website.

  • Hello! I just wanted to ask if you ever have any issues with hackers? My last blog (wordpress) was hacked and I ended up losing many months of hard work due to no backup. Do you have any solutions to protect against hackers?

  • What i do not understood is if truth be told how you’re not actually much more smartly-appreciated than you might be right now. You are very intelligent. You recognize therefore significantly when it comes to this subject, produced me in my view consider it from numerous varied angles. Its like men and women are not involved unless it’s something to do with Woman gaga! Your individual stuffs outstanding. Always take care of it up!

  • I think that is among the most vital info for me. And i am satisfied studying
    your article. But should remark on few normal issues,
    The site taste is perfect, the articles is really excellent : D.

    Excellent job, cheers

  • Just imagine for a second if you could get into the mind of a millionaire. Think of all the things that you could learn. Well, you actually can do just that. A millionaire is giving away all of his secret right on the internet. You don’t even need to leave the house to learn what made him rich. All it takes is visiting He will literally teach you all of the secrets to making money. Don’t you think it’s time that you earned the living that you deserve? Change your life today by simply following the link above. Do it for yourself and everyone that you care about.

  • An individual automatically help to make really articles or blog posts I might point out. This is the very first time that My spouse and i went to internet web page thereby much? We pleasantly surprised while using the research you’ve made to make this type of placed amazing. Amazing pastime!

  • Did you know that people make their entire income promoting ClickBank? You too could be one of the many who have quit their job. Affiliate marketing is as old as the internet. It’s not going to go away any time soon. You too can get your piece of the pie. Why shouldn’t you? Do you really like working the job you have? Are you going to be able to do it until you retire? If you’re job requires physical labor, then you know the answer to that question. There’s no way you’re going to be able to do that when you get older. That’s just the truth and no one needs to tell it to you. Right now you could be making money online. Does it require work? You better believe it does. No honest person is ever going to tell you that it’s possible to become a millionaire online without doing any work whatsoever. It’s not possible. That doesn’t mean there isn’t money to be made. There’s plenty of money out there to be made by people just like yourself. Now you know there’s going to be a pitch for a product. You’re right about that. Click on the link and check it out. There’s a video you can watch that will explain everything. It will tell you how to make money using ClickBank. Watch the video and see what you think. You too can be one of the many who earn a living promoting ClickBank. Some people earn a good living and there’s no reason why you can’t.

  • Are you the type who likes to hangout on social media? Have you ever thought about making it a career? You can help promote their business using social media. This means you can do what you already love doing and make money at it. Does this sound like something you’d like to do? If so, then check out You can help people and make some money in the process. You already hang out at social media sites. Why not make a few bucks doing it?

  • Hi there would you mind letting me know which web host you’re working with?

    I’ve loaded your blog in 3 different browsers and I must say this blog
    loads a lot faster then most. Can you recommend a good hosting provider at a honest price?
    Many thanks, I appreciate it!

  • Are you the kind of guy who loves to watch sexy girls get fucked in the ass? If so, then you need to check out this site This is the one place where anal sex lovers can get their fix. You’ve never seen asses this tight fucked by cocks this big. Each asshole is super tight and it gets fucked by a huge cock. It’s impossible not to beat off while watching these beauties getting ass fucked.

  • Awsome post and right to the point. I don’t know if this is really the best place to ask but do you guys have any thoughts on where to employ some professional writers? Thanks in advance 🙂

  • MetroClick specializes in building completely interactive products like Photo Booth for rental or sale, Touch Screen Kiosks, Large Touch Screen Displays , Monitors, Digital Signages and experiences. With our own hardware production facility and in-house software development teams, we are able to achieve the highest level of customization and versatility for Photo Booths, Touch Screen Kiosks, Touch Screen Monitors and Digital Signage. Visit MetroClick at or , 121 Varick St, New York, NY 10013, +1 646-843-0888

  • Are you searching for a little live cam fun? If so, then you definitely need to check out This is by far the hottest cam site ever. You’ll find plenty of horny girls who love to get down right dirty. This is the kind of dirty that will leave you smiling from ear to ear. Meet girls online who are even more horny than you are. That’s what this is all about. Check it out now and prepare to have an amazing time.

  • Hiya, I’m really glad I have found this info. Today bloggers publish just about gossips and web and this is really annoying. A good blog with exciting content, that’s what I need. Thanks for keeping this website, I’ll be visiting it. Do you do newsletters? Can’t find it.

  • You’ve worked hard this week. Now it’s time to let your hair down and have a little fun. You can do just that at There’s a whole lot of sexy cam girls there. You’ll be amazed by how many there are. Not only that, but these girls are super dirty. This is by far the hottest cam site on the internet. You’ll fully understand that the very second your eyeballs are laid upon these beauties.

  • You’re so awesome! I don’t think I’ve truly read through a single thing like that before. So nice to discover someone with a few genuine thoughts on this topic. Seriously.. thank you for starting this up. This website is something that is required on the web, someone with a little originality!

  • I must show appreciation to this writer just for rescuing me from such a trouble. Just after surfing throughout the the net and getting advice which are not productive, I believed my life was done. Living without the strategies to the problems you have resolved all through the blog post is a crucial case, and ones which might have in a negative way damaged my career if I hadn’t encountered the website. Your mastery and kindness in taking care of all the pieces was helpful. I am not sure what I would have done if I had not encountered such a solution like this. I can also at this point look forward to my future. Thank you very much for your high quality and effective guide. I won’t be reluctant to endorse your site to any person who desires guidelines on this subject matter.

  • Antalya havaalanı transfer, alanında hizmet veren Antalya Transfer CLK Firması transfer servis araçlarıyla konforlu ve güvenli yolculuğu hesaplı fiyat politikasıyla beraber müşterilerine en iyi şekilde sunmaktadır.

    Araç filomuza kattığımız hem VIP hemde STANDART servis araçlarımızla misafirlerimizi Antalya havalimanından alarak istedikleriyle lokasyona transferlerinde hizmetinizdeyiz. Antalya havalimanı transferinde saat ve zaman önemli olduğu için misafirlerimiz asla beklemezler ve randevularına geç kalmazlar.
    Antalya Transfer CLK Firması olarak mutlu tatiller dileriz

  • I’m going to instantly get a person’s rss when i are unable to to get your own e-mail membership url or maybe e-newsletter assistance. Have you got any? Nicely let me understand so that I possibly could signed up. Appreciate it.. aplikasi rekomendasi saham 2018

  • Good info! Interesting informations over this web. It’s pretty worth enough for me. In my opinion, if all site owners and bloggers made good content as you did, the net will be a lot more useful than ever before. I could not refrain from commenting. I’ve spent 3 hours looking for such informations. I’ll also share it with a couple of friends interested in it. I have just bookmarked this web. Now with the task done, I will visit some model gay webcams. Thank you!! Greetings from Miami!

  • Cool one! Interesting article over this web. It’s pretty worth enough for me. Personally, if all website owners and bloggers made good content as you did, the internet will be a lot more useful than ever before. I could not refrain from commenting. I’ve spent 1 hour searching for such informations. I’ll also share it with a couple of friends interested in it. I’ve just bookmarked this web. Finished with the job done, I going to visit some model sexy men cams. Thank you very much!! Greetings from Orlando!

  • Good info! Interesting informations over this web. It is pretty worth enough for me. In my opinion, if all webmasters and bloggers made good content as you did, the web will be much more useful than ever before.| I couldn’t refrain from commenting. I ‘ve spent 1 hour looking for such infos. I will also share it with a couple of friends interested in it. I’ve just bookmarked this website. Done with the task done, I’ll find some model homo cams. Gracias!!!Greetings from Orlando!

  • Good one! Interesting informations over this web. It is pretty worth enough for me. Personally, if all site owners and bloggers made good content as you did, the web will be much more useful than ever before.| I could not resist commenting. I ‘ve spent some hours looking for such infos. I’ll also share it with some friends interested in it. I’ve just bookmarked this web. Now with the task done, I going to enjoy some online gay webcams. Thank you!!Greetings from Los Angeles!

  • Super! Interesting info over here. It is pretty worth enough for me. In my opinion, if all webmasters and bloggers made good content as you did, the net will be much more useful than ever before.| I couldn’t resist commenting. I ‘ve spent 1 hour looking for such article. I will also share it with some friends interested in it. I have just bookmarked this web. Done with the search done, I’ll watch some live gay webcams. Thank you very much!!Greetings from Miami!

  • I truly wanted to send a simple message in order to thank you for all the stunning tricks you are placing at this website. My time consuming internet look up has at the end been honored with really good content to write about with my neighbours. I ‘d tell you that many of us readers actually are unquestionably lucky to exist in a notable community with so many brilliant people with valuable plans. I feel really blessed to have come across your entire webpages and look forward to so many more awesome moments reading here. Thanks once again for everything.

  • you are in reality a just right webmaster. The site loading velocity is incredible. It seems that you are doing any distinctive trick. In addition, The contents are masterwork. you’ve performed a great activity on this subject!

  • I as well as my buddies were found sex be going through the good tactics located on your website and then suddenly I got an awful feeling I never expressed respect to the gambling owner for those techniques. Most of the young boys had been for that reason warmed to see all of them and have now surely been loving these things. Thanks for simply being very thoughtful as well as for going for some extraordinary information most people are really needing to learn about. Our sincere regret for not expressing appreciation to sooner.

  • A lot of thanks for all of the hard work on this web page. Ellie loves carrying out investigations and it’s really obvious why. A number of us know all relating to the powerful manner you give very useful information through the web site and strongly encourage contribution from the others on this idea while our child is actually learning a great deal. Enjoy the rest of the year. You’re the one carrying out a useful job.

  • Paykasa, online ödeme sistemine alternatif olan paykasa kartı, güvenle alışverişlerinizde kullanabilirsiniz, Ön ödeme yöntemlerinden bir tanesi olan paykasa kart siparişi ve bozumu ile ilgili detaylı bilgi edinmek için eeb sitemizi ziyaret ederek ekonomik fiyatlardan sizde yararlanın paykasa al

  • Hello there! I could have sworn I’ve visited this site before but after going through a few of the posts I realized it’s new to me. Nonetheless, I’m definitely delighted I discovered it and I’ll be book-marking it and checking back regularly!|

  • Just wish to say your article is as astounding. The clearness in your post is simply cool and i could assume you’re an expert on this subject. Fine with your permission allow me to grab your feed to keep up to date with forthcoming post. Thanks a million and please carry on the gratifying work.

  • We came right here coming from a different web address along with imagined I might check out issues out there. I prefer some tips i notice ED & Me – Her Life On The Veg so now i’m pursuing a person. Enjoy groing through internet web site again. Web Address

  • Hey very nice blog!! Man .. Beautiful .. Amazing .. I’ll bookmark your website and take the feeds also…I’m happy to find a lot of useful info here in the post, we need work out more strategies in this regard, thanks for sharing. . . . . .

  • Hola! I’ve been reading your blog for some time now and finally got the bravery to go ahead and give you a shout out from Dallas Tx! Just wanted to mention keep up the fantastic work!

  • It is definitely a pleasant as well as helpful little bit of details.. trader saham indonesia I’m grateful that you simply distributed this handy details around. Make sure you stop us advised such as this. We appreciate you giving.

  • Good Info Buddy. It Helps a lot. Love to see you posts. Our Indian Escorts in Hyderabad are very discrete, honest and professional with client. Our Escort girls offer in call and outcall services in every major area in Hyderabad. Our most trusted Indian Escorts having great intelligence, humour and charm to seduce the clients. They’ll make surely your remain in Hyderabad will become ne’er -to-be-forgot. In become the escort agency Hyderabad-Love insures that everybody is covered discreet, professional and anonymous. Contact Miss Anjali @

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *