And this is how my blog is revitalized. I experienced a drought in my life.. my desire to write shriveled. I did not entirely lose myself, but I did forget a piece of myself. Misplaced most likely. Somewhere. So I planted some blue flowers. Promise to forget-me-not.

documentation of my neuroses, eccentricities, imperfections, lame puns & other rad bullshit

23 MINUTES WORTH OF MY BRAIN'S THOUGHTS (HA SO NOT MUCH)

23 MINUTES WORTH OF MY BRAIN'S THOUGHTS (HA SO NOT MUCH)

Put Riley alone in Macy’s for 23 minutes on a fine Sunday morning. &&& BUH-BAM. She randomly spits out wisdom.. or is it absolute crap..or could it possibly be her flesh-burning coffee?? Eh, I’m going to go with D) all of the above because I think at least two of those are true. Also, I haven’t bubbled in a D) in a while.

You know, I’ve never really believed in the whole idea of “finding yourself”. I mean I look in the mirror and there I am. What else is there to see? And then I find myself in a psychology class my junior year of high school, learning of theories about an entire unconscious part of our mind that we don’t even realize is lurking. I mean yeah, it makes perfect sense and is quite interesting– yet I still found myself treating life as if that notion didn’t apply to me. Like I’ve said before, I’ve never viewed a part of me as hidden, but now that I think about it, it’s probably because I was unaware that there was another part of me in existence. Similar to the way a knock in the head can trigger migraines, a knock in my head released a new Riley. Or maybe “new” is the wrong word. Maybe it’s not a “new” version of me, maybe it’s just Riley.

We, humans, society, everyone, have the awful habit of turning down our saturation. Yes, we all express our passion, our quirks, & our qualities, but we minimize their vibrancy. We withhold the extremes of our traits. For example, a person may express their love for modern poetry, but the internal explosion taking place within one’s heart when their eyes read a beautiful demonstration of symbolism isn’t shown. We tone down our “weirdness” in order to be normal, mature, socially accepted, & what not. By doing this, we are entrapping a special aspect of ourselves; an aspect that sets us apart from the rest of the world. The aspect that helps us really understand each other as an individual human being. & it makes me sad to think about this because I want to know you for you. I don’t want to know the version of you created by your desire to fit in. I want to know the person who head bangs to Tiesto in the shower. The person who’s almost been in multiple brawls over their fantasy football team. The person whose parent’s disapproval could never overcome their obsession with the art of piercings & tattoos. Isn’t it more lame to hold yourself back for no reason? To keep a piece of yourself a secret from the universe?

The feeling of complete expression is freeing. The second you let go of your fears & teachings & reveal yourself to yourself, you partake in an enlightening experience. It’s a moment of bliss & serenity, of purity & genuineness, & of true, legitimate happiness. I remember last November being one of the most difficult months of my life, each day spanning longer & longer, just wishing it’d be over. Yet here I am today, content that I was chosen to feel that pain & dread. Without the suffering, I would have never realized that I had barely known myself. The mind that I used everyday, that of which I assumed I knew so well, turned out to be a complete stranger to me. A change took place– it was not immediate & is still taking place. I can’t really put this change into words, but I hope you can locate it in my smile. Maybe you can’t see my third eye, but I promise you it has opened. & I really hope yours will someday, too.

This whole process of “finding oneself”  is something I still have a difficult time believing, but as of last Fall, I underwent a transition. Okay, I might be a wee bit crazy. Or is it overly optimistic? You might be convinced I was abducted by aliens & probed with insane thoughts. You might think I’ve made too many stupid decisions these last few months. I’m chill with that. If you get anything from this blog post, I hope that it is the desire to turn your saturation back up, to not be afraid of the qualities that make you you, & to not hesitate so much. No more overthinking.



39 thoughts on “23 MINUTES WORTH OF MY BRAIN'S THOUGHTS (HA SO NOT MUCH)”

  • I simply want to tell you that I’m newbie to blogging and site-building and really liked your blog. Almost certainly I’m likely to bookmark your blog post . You certainly have exceptional articles. Many thanks for revealing your webpage.

  • MetroClick specializes in building completely interactive products like Photo Booth for rental or sale, Touch Screen Kiosks, Large Touch Screen Displays , Monitors, Digital Signages and experiences. With our own hardware production facility and in-house software development teams, we are able to achieve the highest level of customization and versatility for Photo Booths, Touch Screen Kiosks, Touch Screen Monitors and Digital Signage. Visit MetroClick at http://www.metroclick.com/ or , 121 Varick St, New York, NY 10013, +1 646-843-0888

  • Hey there would you mind sharing which blog platform you’re using? I’m planning to start my own blog in the near future but I’m having a hard time deciding between BlogEngine/Wordpress/B2evolution and Drupal. The reason I ask is because your design seems different then most blogs and I’m looking for something completely unique. P.S My apologies for getting off-topic but I had to ask!

  • Simply desire to say your article is as surprising. The clearness in your post is just excellent and i can assume you are an expert on this subject. Fine with your permission allow me to grab your feed to keep updated with forthcoming post. Thanks a million and please keep up the enjoyable work.

  • If some one needswantsdesireswishes to be updated with latestnewestmost recentmost up-to-datehottest technologies thenafter thatafterwardtherefore he must be visitgo to seepay a visitpay a quick visit this websiteweb sitesiteweb page and be up to date everydaydailyevery dayall the time.

  • My wife and i got quite excited Albert managed to complete his survey by way of the ideas he discovered from your web page. It’s not at all simplistic to just be making a gift of guides which some people have been making money from. And now we fully grasp we now have the website owner to give thanks to for that. The specific illustrations you’ve made, the straightforward blog menu, the relationships you can help create – it’s most exceptional, and it’s facilitating our son and us feel that this situation is cool, and that is exceedingly indispensable. Thank you for all the pieces!

  • Nice read, I just passed this onto a colleague who was doing a little research on that. And he actually bought me lunch because I found it for him smile Therefore let me rephrase that: Thank you for lunch! “Too much sanity may be madness. And maddest of all, to see life as it is and not as it should be” by Miguel de Cervantes.

  • GreatWonderfulFantasticMagnificentExcellent goodsitems from you, man. I’veI have keep in mindbear in mindrememberconsidertake into accounthave in mindtake notebe mindfulunderstandbe awaretake into accout your stuff prior toprevious to and you’reyou are simplyjust tooextremely greatwonderfulfantasticmagnificentexcellent. I reallyactually like what you’veyou have gotreceivedobtainedacquiredbought hereright here, reallycertainly like what you’reyou are statingsaying and the waythe best waythe way in which in whichby whichduring whichthrough whichwherein you assertyou are sayingyou say it. You are makingYou makeYou’re making it entertainingenjoyable and you stillyou continue to take care ofcare for to staykeep it smartsensiblewise. I cantcan notcan’t wait to readlearn far moremuch more from you. This isThat is actuallyreally a terrificgreatwonderfultremendous websitesiteweb site.

  • Thank youThanks for any otheranothersome otherevery other greatwonderfulfantasticmagnificentexcellent articlepost. WhereThe place else may justmaycould anyoneanybody get that kind oftype of informationinfo in such a perfectan ideal waymethodmeansapproachmanner of writing? I haveI’ve a presentation nextsubsequent week, and I amI’m at theon the look forsearch for such informationinfo.

  • Hello very nice blog!! Guy .. Excellent .. Amazing .. I will bookmark your website and take the feeds additionally¡KI am happy to seek out a lot of useful info here within the post, we’d like develop extra techniques in this regard, thank you for sharing. . . . . .

  • WowHurrah, that’s what I was lookingsearchingseekingexploring for, what a stuffinformationdatamaterial! presentexisting here at this blogweblogwebpagewebsiteweb site, thanks admin of this websiteweb sitesiteweb page.

  • I want to show some thanks to the writer just for rescuing me from such a setting. After browsing throughout the world wide web and coming across ways which are not productive, I figured my entire life was over. Living without the presence of solutions to the issues you have resolved through the post is a crucial case, and those which might have adversely damaged my career if I hadn’t encountered your web blog. Your personal understanding and kindness in handling all things was excellent. I don’t know what I would have done if I hadn’t come upon such a thing like this. It’s possible to at this moment look ahead to my future. Thank you very much for your expert and amazing help. I won’t be reluctant to propose the sites to anyone who wants and needs recommendations on this area.

  • 激光無創熱作用模式精準作用於陰道粘膜層、肌層,使陰道組織發生新生改變,修復由於順產而引起的損傷,解決一系列產後女性生殖系統常見問題。私密緊緻作用原理:刺激陰道粘膜固有層、粘膜肌層,使其膠原纖維、彈性纖維大量增生重塑;彈性纖維網修復,陰道收緊 SUI作用原理:恢復盆底正常解剖位置 陰道彈性纖維網得以修復,恢復到正常解剖位置避免了擠壓,牽拉尿道,使尿道角度恢復正常 盆底血供豐富,間接的使尿道括約肌得以修復進而停止漏尿或症狀減輕 私密敏感、潤滑作用原理:CO2微脈管作用,使血管重建、促進血液循環 血管活性腸肽(VIP)和神經肽Y(NPY) 表達增加,敏感度增加 血流量增加,陰道上皮細胞功能增加、陰道粘膜自分泌功能增強,潤滑度增加

  • My brother recommended I might like this website. He was entirely right. This post actually made my day. You can not imagine just how much time I had spent for this information! Thanks!

  • Excellent beat ! I wish to apprentice while you amend your web site, how could i subscribe for a blog site? The account aided me a acceptable deal. I had been tiny bit acquainted of this your broadcast offered bright clear concept

  • There are a handful of fascinating points with time in this article but I don’t know if these people center to heart. There’s some validity but I’ll take hold opinion until I investigate it further. Very good write-up , thanks and now we want much more! Included in FeedBurner also

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *